She comes to a special place
away from everyday living
away from just being everyone's something
to a place all of her own.

She connects to the land of cyberspace
and heads to a fun filled lobby
with all kinds of quirk and cute lil names
of all friends she is slowing making.

Sometimes she stops 
and finds herself
truly amazed
that she really has "friends"
from  places all over the world.

Never did she ever thought 
she would have a special friend
over in England
or know someone in New Zealand
let alone
so many in the United States
and of course
her beautiful country ... Canada.

She loves how people 
she hardly knows
open up so easily to her 
as her curosity burns
in knowing another's joys and pains

Very touched is she
when they trust her just so
with their tender pain
... their hurts
... loneliness with life
she believes she has learned so much
about the emotions of living 
through these friends with no faces.

She just loves and lives for
the moments of pure laughter
pure nonsence
of just being wild and free.

No cares as to what she types
and she loves reading the LOL or LMAO
it brings out another side of her
a side that's been a long time
hidden.

She has shed a few tears 
as she hears the words 
cancer and death
... cause you see
these "friends" are not 
really "friends" no more
they are her "family" now.

With time and love
she reaches deep into her heart
and puts together a slideshow
with all her 
online "family" starring in it
emails and messages
of how beautiful it was she receives.

She knows she didn't do it for praise
she did it cause these 
never-to-be met "friends"
mean so very much to her
and she just had to let them know.

Last night she gets 
a "kiss" blown to her
from a male friend 
she often wondered
where life took him
for no goodbyes ... 
no nothing did he say.

As he types a few words
one by one the tears are falling
sadly down her face
something terrible had happened 
so limited is his words
she slowly reads between the lines
as she wipes the tears from her eyes.

So slow is his typing 
... so silently her heart listens
longing to hold him for just awhile
if only for a moment
she could take his hurt away
to let him know just how much she cares
but she knows there is no way 
for he lives so far away 
she brushes the back 
of her hand across her eyes
as she looks down at her keyboard 
of many letters
wondering what words 
can she possibly type.

Tonight she doesn't go to bed
with giggles from online
instead she goes to bed
with a sad heavy heart
of a friend who lost his wife
and having a terribly hard time.

So hard it is ...
for her "real" family and friends 
to understand
the "love" she has 
for "online"

Sometimes she feels so torn
between two worlds
... two worlds that are not really 
that different from each other
for both holds people 
who cry real tears
... who laugh with real laughter
... and who feels real pain
... and loneliness

She has another "friend" in Alberta 
whose hanging tough 
to not let cancer beat her
so strong in heart ... in faith 
she is this special lady 
from out west.

As she is writing these words tonight
she wonders how did "unseen faces"
ever come to mean so much to her
then she remembers a saying 
she has upon her wall
"The best and most beautiful things 
in the world
cannot be seen 
or even touched
they must be felt 
with the heart"
it is then
she finds the answer to her question
she felt it 
ALL with her heart!




20 October 2003