My life has changed so much, 
And yet not really that much. 
How can things be so different 
And yet not so different. 



Sometimes things make perfect sense, 
Then at times, no sense at all. 
I wish that I could make some sense 
Of all that has gone on and is yet to fall.



I sometimes understand what I feel, 
And then other times I don't understand at all. 
Why?  Why can't I get a clear picture of what is real. 
Why is there so much uncertainty in all. 



What do I really feel? 
Am I strong enough to go forward and see. 
Or should I be as cold as steel, 
So that no one can ever hurt me. 



My heart says one thing, 
My mind says another. 
Why can't they get together, 
And stop this mixed up feeling. 



Should I back away, turn and run, 
Never to look back or turn around. 
Or should I stand my ground, 
And face all the changes that have begun. 



Part of me wants to leave it all behind, 
To close the door and walk away. 
A part of me is fearful of what I may find, 
But deep in my heart I know I must stay. 



Why now?  At this stage of my life 
Do I really need all this strife. 
Why has God given them to me. 
I wish I knew the plan  he has for me. 



How can I love someone I've never known 
How can that love be so strong? 
Into a tailspin I've been thrown. 
Is what I feel right or wrong?



Written by
© Betty Schenk