I have only ever wanted,
one real special thing in my life.
For years now,
I never thought
that my dream would come true.



Through many tears and surgeries,
watching my friends have their babies,
being invited to baby showers,
and yes ... 
even seeing a baby being born.



I thought, "what is wrong with me?"
Have I done something so bad,
that I don't deserve
to have a child.



Through hurt and pain,
I tried to put on a smile,
and just lead my life
the best way I knew how.
But there was always
such an emptiness,
inside my heart and soul.



No one knew what I felt inside,
no one knew how many times I cried.
Only God knew the torture
I was going through.
So I prayed to God,
to please grant me
my special gift.
And yes he did grant not one
... but two gifts.



First, he gave me the most loving,
caring man in the world.
A man that shared my hurt
and my pain.
He also never was granted
his special gift.
But we decided with the help of God,
we would make our dream come true.



That dream did come true.
Now we are finally
a mom and dad.
our hurts and
our pain,
are now gone.



Instead we are filled
with love and joy.
I never knew
how wonderful it could be,
to be called mommy
for the first time.
It was the most beautiful words
I have ever heard.



Our son's name
is Demauri Adam Randall.
And he is our special gift
from God.
I just want everyone to know,
never give up on your dreams,
because dreams really
do come true.



Now when we go into tuck
our son at night,
or I look at his angel face
as he sleeps.
I think to myself, 
the waiting was all worth while.



Mommy and daddy love you Demauri 



2003
© Brenda (McQuoid) Randall