Thinking is all I seem to be doing.
I think of you, of this, of that ...
That day like so many others 
made me realize that
Nothing is real but pain now
And deep down inside 
I just want to scream.




Trust is one of the 
many things I seek.
It is so important 
and it is no where 
to be found in thee.
We are so close yet 
so far away.
Heavy thoughts 
I try to chase
And they sure ain't 
of snow white.




There are things 
inside me that scream and shout
And I'm left with 
this simple thought:
Where do I take 
this pain of mine?
Because nothing has changed 
And suspicion 
will always be your name.




I simply have nothing 
more to give 
And I really can't 
take this anymore.
I need the end 
to set me free
Because things are not 
what they used to be.




The good times 
are hard to remember,
They only lasted 
a very short period of time.
Why I subjected myself 
to everything 
And lasting for this long 
is something I can't even answer.




I cannot stand 
this Hell I feel,
And no one can save me.
In order to save myself,
For sanity and 
for stability, 
I am now ready 
to call this the end.




I deserve a lot better,
This has been 
a growing process.
Although I don't have much 
positive things to take with me,
I do know what I'm worth 
And what I deserve!




© Nicole Robichaud